Get them high

.....Nothing that has ever happen in my life that I could control. My mother passing when I was a young child.....my father being a heartless ass. My sister blaming me for everything that went wrong in her ife. My girlfriend and her mental issues, beating me until I could not think straight. The only thing I could every control in my life was my own high. I would smoke and shoot up for hours on end. This was the only thing that has ever numbed my pain. But it only numbed it. It never cured it or got rid of it . I began to wonder was my only purpose in life to take abuse from others... Did god making me as the worlds wipping boy....is there even a god? I thought hard on this as i smoked a spliff in my hell hole that I call a house. i exhaled and fire blew from my mouth. and thick black smoke choked the air. The house caught fire and everyone died. death... that is one thing i can control and i will from now on.
Light one up with me now, wont you